Life after Zoloft

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

The decision...the tapering

I have made the decision to taper off of Zoloft. I have been taking it for about 2 years. Yes, it has helped me to manage some of the mood swings, anger issues, etc, but I feel that it's been a temporary crutch for me.

Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change the fact that I took it. I think I was definitely suffering some post partum depression when I made the decision to take Zoloft at a therapist's suggestion. And you know, it's been really helpful. I have to say, though, that I have never gotten 100% comfortable with the fact that I rely on it.

It's not just the fact that I rely on it, I could live with that. My chief complaints have been a couple of side effects that I think make the anxiety/depression that pushed me to Zoloft much worse. The sexual side effects (zero sex drive) and the very quick and strange weight gain have been the most disturbing. The weight gain, I could say that it's my fault, I have been overweight in some way for probably 10 years. BUT...I am gaining and keeping weight in places in my body that I've never had issues, even after the birth of my second child, I've never had too much of a belly or fat arms, legs, etc, and in my heart, I know it's the Zoloft. Maybe not the weight gain, but the distribution.

I have read up on the tapering and I think it will go like this:

100 mg (current dose) for a week
100 mg/50 mg alternate for a week
50 mg for a week
50 mg/25 mg for 2 weeks
25 mg for 2 weeks
and then....infinity and beyond!

My husband will SO not be on board for this, because he remembers the screaming mee mee that I was before I started taking Zoloft.

But...I have a plan! I have a plan, and it includes meditation, massage therapy and GIVING UP CAFFEINE! I drink like 4 to 5 cups a day--and that is just the morning. I usually carry it on through the evening, and make a pot before dinner, too. No wonder I have sleep issues and want to rip peoples' heads off by afternoon! Food...I am going to cut back and eventually give up the refined sugars and flours--they are killing me!

I have made this plan, I am doing this. Worse thing that could happen? I don't know.